To whom it may concern...

If you are reading this, then it must be at some point after my memories have been sealed. Please know I, Sion Astal, have chosen this for myself with no outside influence, of my own free will. The decision was made by necessity in addition to being the best way to manage my current condition. There is no need for concern regarding that condition despite how desperate it may sound. So long as my memories remain sealed, so too will my condition be.

It was my decision to make, but I do fear that while it may have been correct, it is not necessarily right. Surely, if the person reading this once knew a Sion Astal as I was before my memories were sealed, they are suffering. Similarly, the Sion Astal who is reading over this letter in, no doubt, surprise, trepidation, fear, and anger is also suffering. For those who suffer but most especially to that Sion Astal, I wish I could say "I sincerely apologize". It is unfortunate that I cannot even bring this me who is unaware of my life a cold comfort such as that.

To those who are not that self, please take care of this me who will be without much of what I am have been used to. I know not how I will be without memories to me, but doubtless, I will want to do my best for others. I am a king of a growing kingdom. Whether or not I am a good king can be left to the philosophers and historians of the future. As it is, I would consider myself a king who has done what he can for his people, for better or for worse. Without my memories, I will know none of this, nor will I likely know how to respond to the idea.

However; to my self who remembers nothing, there are things to be frightened of in these circumstances. You must not allow that fear to control you. This can be a place where you can be at ease, at least for a time. I have hopes that you will pursue the same goal I am choosing to reach in this place, but I also understand that you will do what is necessary in order to achieve the end we are all seeking.

To those who are not that self, please kindly disregard the second letter as it is intended for myself and only myself.

Thank you for your kindness, if you have showed any.

Addressed to himself (Part 2):

Please. Do what you can to spare Ryner the torment that may loom before him. This is a man who has had such hardship in his life--for reasons he cannot help, for reasons he cannot control. To most people in our world, he is someone who was born the worst of the unfortunate. People have called him cruel and horrific things. People have hurt him and those he loves in cruel and horrific ways.

I am one of those people.

I have struggled to reach for an ideal that Ryner himself also longs for. And I continue to struggle for that, for the sake of everyone. But above all, I struggle to ensure that a fate of what he has known... being all that he will know... forever and ever.... such a fate cannot be. I must never allow such a thing.

I am weak. I have attempted the one way in which I know how to spare him a continued existence of suffering, but I am unable to take Ryner's life myself. My best and dearest friend, I would have spared you suffering if only I were strong enough.

That is why I am here.

Please, myself. Find the strength to either do what is needed or to change what our choices are.

For this? I am sorry to leave in your hands. I can only wish I am strong enough as you are.